024.
WOW. I kinda teared-up a little seeing Fanny Pak go home today on ABDC. No worries Fanny Pak, you guys will always be winners in our hearts.
“Fanny Pak stands so much more than dance. We stand for feeling capable and who you truly are and if we can give that to the audience that means more than winning.” - Matt Cady
023.
I love my grandparents.
After a phone call from my grandparents, I now know my biggest goal in life. It’s not to live in the biggest house, or make the most money, or even find my “one true love”, instead I want to give back to my grandparents. My grandparents raised me from when I was a baby, until i was about 7. Even if they’re now over thousands of miles away, they always have my back. No matter how many mistakes i made or how big my mistakes are, they are always there for me. They are the biggest motivators in my life. They are the two people who’s love for me is uncoditional. They were my parents for the first seven years of my life. My grandparents love me, and I love my grandparents.
022.
Sophomore year is almost over. School is practically over. Class of 2012’s grad is on Sunday. Nothing to do in class next week. Maybe we’re just going to “stare at each other the whole period” like my math teacher suggested. I don’t really mind doing that, anything other than school/learning-related would be good. Hm. So what did I learn over this school year? OOH! List time!
1.) You can’t keep everyone/everything you love in your life. You just need to let go sometimes.
2.) “To be enthusiastic, act enthusiastic.”
3.) “Best-friend-ship” last longer than a relationship.
4.) You’ve got to open your eyes, minds, and hearts to the type of beauty that really matters; inner beauty.
5.) You’re fortunate, you just don’t realize how much you are.
6.) SMILE
7.) “Failure is not making a mistake, failure is letting a mistake knock you down.”
8.) ”Pictures are poems with no words.”
9.) Always trust your “gut feeling” it might actually save your, or even someone else’s, life.
10.) Go ahead and hate your friends, hate school, and hate life, but always love your family.
"We’re all wild animals, brother."
Jake, Adventure Time. (via ithoughtiknewthings)Tonight is the night Outasight
musicthatismotivatingmetostudy
Grouplove - Tongue Tied
021.
I thought a mother was supposed to…
be a source of comfort
understandyou
love you for all of your imperfections
I love my mom. She works like other parents. She cooks and cleans like other mothers. She packs me and my sister lunch like other mothers. She doesnt seem like shes any different from other mothers,but I just wish she could be more understanding and mature. She has a very childish mentality. She’s totally unaware of how childish and hurtful her words are. She’s a “winner”, she cant stand losing anything; especially arguments. She said it herself: “Don’t argue with me, because I will always win.” There’s no getting through her. Her anger gets the best of her most of the time. She’s a brick wall. She shows how she obviously favores me over my sister. Here are more of my favorite quotes from her:
“I don’t care if they’re old or young, I WILL win any argument”
“I’m older than you, so I’m right.”
“Useless!”
She makes me feel like crap. She makes me feel uncomfortable around her.she’s the reason for my suicidal thoughts. I want to correct her from her mistakes, but that will only lead to more hurtful words or even a spank in the face. I wish I could take her to a phychologist. I love my mom. I’m not asking for much. I just want her to see her mistakes. How they affect me. How she’s slowly killing me in the inside.
R.I.P. Paris
At around 12:35am today, I woke up to loud squeals coming from the living room. At that moment, I had a strong, yet bad feeling that something was wrong. Someone turned the living room lights on, so I got up from my bed almost instantaneously. When I opened my door, I saw that both my parents were by our bunnies’ cage. I slowly walked-up to see my mom slowly petting our younger bunny, Paris. My mom decides to take her out, during her attempt, Paris was giving out the same loud squeals that woke me up. The events that happened next, went by so fast that I, myself couldn’t believe it.
When Paris was out, she gave a big jerk. She then collapsed to the ground as her body went still. I fealt for a heartbeat, but there was none.
At that moment, I couldn’t say a word, I stared at my bunny, as mixed emotions raced in my mind. My mom began to cry. She then tells my dad to get my sister. Finally in realization, I gently pet Paris a few times, as I feel a farmiliar soft, furry head. Tears then began to form in my eyes.
Now with my sister awake, she she began petting Paris. Along side with a curious Laundon, the older bunny who’d been occasionally sticking her head out of the cage door opening . My mom and I went ahead and tried to find a box to put Paris in. It wasn’t easy, but we decided to use a medium sized, rectangular box. A white box which was used to hold my Xbox.
My mom placed several colored tissue paper at the bottom of the box. She then placed Paris’ body inside the box, along with her old water dispenser and a bag of bunny food. While we were giving our last goodbyes, the older bunny, Laundon, got out of her cage. I guess she too wanted to say to ‘goodbye’ to her little sister. Seeing Laundon look at Paris in the box, brought me to tears. I knew that somewhere in that little bunny mind of hers, she too knew what had happened to her sister.
After several minutes, Laundon heads back to the cage. We all pet Paris for the last time, and cover her with a bright red tissue paper.
Back in my room, memories began to rush back to me. Memories like the first day we brought her home, to that one Halloween when we dressed-up both of the bunnies, and to those few times we took them to the park.
Inside, I fealt deep sadness for the passing of my pet, and also deep regret for all the times I’ve decided not to spend time with my bunnies. I can’t take any of my mistake nor my my bunny, so the best thing I could do was to think more positive. “She is now at a better place,” I thought. Who knows, when it comes to my time, maybe I will get to see and pet her like old times.
Rest In Paradise Paris.
(April 2008 - April 2012)
I will miss you! 
Maroon 5 ft. Wiz Khalifa - Pay Phone
gotta love maroon 5..
(via m-urf)
Maroon 5- Come Away To The Water
Jenny Suk ft. Adrian Per | Only Wanna Give it to You
“Cause I only wanna give it to you, nd I want you more than a new pair of shoes.
I only wanna give it to you, and I sure do hope that you feel like I do…”
(via iamlynnx3)
020.
You sure do know how to wipe a smile off of a person’s faces.
Thanks for ruining my day.
019.
“So many people enter and leave your life! Hundreds of thousands of people! You have to keep the door open so they can come in! But it also means you have to let them go!” - Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close [p.153]
